We are here, he and I, we are at our vacation home, our place of rest. The place we go for a quick get away or an extended stay when it’s time to replenish our stressed, harried body and thoughts. I love it here; I also hate it, I have a bag full of mixed… Continue reading Cheating Spouse, Faithful Spouse
As a young teen, I would self-harm before it was even “a thing,” not that person who inflict pain upon themselves do so for attention; I’m just saying that before cutting, punching and hurting one-self was known I would engage. (It’s not a contest, I’m not trying to “win” for those who might be suggesting. ) I was… Continue reading Rest, oh rest, where are you?
It’s been a while since I’ve posted, I don’t know what happened, I just lost the oomph it takes to open my thoughts and put them into words. In addition to the holidays and the busyness, holidays bring, I just couldn’t gather the courage to face all these feelings that won’t leave me alone. They nag… Continue reading Hope, Hope, where are you?
I’m not exactly sure why but there is something about losing a loved one that causes days to look differently. It’s hard to explain, but most people will agree. I’m talking literally; for instance, driving in your car, pull up to a stoplight and looking to your left. There, in the car beside you sits… Continue reading How does death affect life?
pretending not to know what was going on in your life, I would scour the internet, looking for the magic cure “how to love your spouse.” I read and re-read my journals and notes, looking for more information that I might have missed. I would search our conversations of when you returned from a weekend… Continue reading As I continued on
Dear One, I continue this letter to you and want to explain the reason that I am here. Still. First, I will not take blame for your decision to go wander outside of our marriage; I will take blame for the ugly that I allowed in our marriage. You were away at the vacation… Continue reading Dear you: and this is where God rushed in
I have filled many journals with letters to you. Page after page with words that seem to repeat themselves. Usually, after writing, I will close the journal, set it aside for a day or two and then go back to re-read before I hand it off to you. Most of those letters have remained in… Continue reading Dear You – Dear Her
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There are so many thoughts that swim around in my head; I never know which to address. Last year, or was it just a few months ago (?) my husband made a comment to me: “Sometimes I worry about your mental health.” To be fair, I was on one of my slides downward, a depression mixed with… Continue reading Where to start , when to end?
… was to talk about the way our society has glorified marital affairs. You know = infidelity, cheating, lying, having sex with somebody else’s spouse. Don’t believe me? Listen to the songs on your radio, turn on your television, rent a movie. It is everywhere and we’ve made it okay. It has always been this way… Continue reading The intention of my previous post