pretending not to know what was going on in your life, I would scour the internet, looking for the magic cure “how to love your spouse.” I read and re-read my journals and notes, looking for more information that I might have missed. I would search our conversations of when you returned from a weekend… Continue reading As I continued on
Dear One, I continue this letter to you and want to explain the reason that I am here. Still. First, I will not take blame for your decision to go wander outside of our marriage; I will take blame for the ugly that I allowed in our marriage. You were away at the vacation… Continue reading Dear you: and this is where God rushed in
I have filled many journals with letters to you. Page after page with words that seem to repeat themselves. Usually, after writing, I will close the journal, set it aside for a day or two and then go back to re-read before I hand it off to you. Most of those letters have remained in… Continue reading Dear You – Dear Her
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There are so many thoughts that swim around in my head; I never know which to address. Last year, or was it just a few months ago (?) my husband made a comment to me: “Sometimes I worry about your mental health.” To be fair, I was on one of my slides downward, a depression mixed with… Continue reading Where to start , when to end?
… was to talk about the way our society has glorified marital affairs. You know = infidelity, cheating, lying, having sex with somebody else’s spouse. Don’t believe me? Listen to the songs on your radio, turn on your television, rent a movie. It is everywhere and we’ve made it okay. It has always been this way… Continue reading The intention of my previous post
From Psalm: O God my rock,” I cry, “Why have you forgotten me? Why must I wander around in grief, oppressed by my enemies?” 10 Their taunts break my bones. They scoff, “Where is this God of yours?” 11 Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in… Continue reading Kiss and say Good-bye
I watched (from afar) as he went from one bar to another. He had been doing so well. What….? Why now? It felt odd watching him as if I were the one in the wrong, but it wasn’t me taking the path not meant to be traveled, it was him. I wondered what his excuse… Continue reading Wide awake Nightmare
Surviving Infidelity I’ve received a few emails asking if I am okay, where I’ve been, will I be back? The answers are: Yes, nowhere exciting and yes. The first week of September, I brought my Life-Loving daughter, the youngest, R to College. The following week the older daughter graduated from her college. Life… Continue reading The whole truth and nothing but
Most of us work so hard to grow our girls into strong, confident, hard working women; to be self-sufficient, so that if anything happens, they will be able to take care of themselves. ( I’m not talking about removing God from the equation. ) We want for them to be secure enough to go through… Continue reading